Verb conjugation of "despise" in English

Let's not forget how we started. We were writing each other very long messages and today we are both much more fluent in both languages. No book could have brought us that far. Cheers.
Anyway, there are a lot of people on board and I no matter how high the waves may be, I always suffer from nausea or seasickness. I have not been on a small boat before. I will have to vomit.
I can already speak a little English but not too well. So I'm more cautious about making mistakes. I want to improve my English, because it is also good for your confidence and communication skills.