Verb conjugation of "despair" in English

Thanks again for your time. I attached my avatar, it is very similar to the previous one. I have guided the development of the website, and I feel free to share my knowledge with others.
Anyway, there are a lot of people on board and I no matter how high the waves may be, I always suffer from nausea or seasickness. I have not been on a small boat before. I will have to vomit.
I come from Panama, but for 2 years now I have been living in Austria. I hope you have time for me. Normally, I finish my work at 7 o'clock. Where are you living at the moment? Where were you born?