Translation of contradicción

Well why are you doing that to yourself? That is very hard. You can easily write in another language, if you prefer, because I speak many languages and I can understand many more. I only have problems with writing.
My mother tongue is Spanish. For one year I lived in Spain. I'm from Huston, Texas, USA, originally. I want to study Spanish literature next year. I have already been to my professor to discuss it.
I have learned German for one year and I would like to intensify my studies. Do not know how yet... It is very difficult at my age to start new projects in life. I am over 75, did I tell ya...